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I am an addict. Immediately you know that your mind went to horrible things, drugs, alcohol, etc. You are wrong. I am not addicted to any of those things. I am addicted to people and dreams. OK - and caffeine.

I have always had a GREAT fantasy life. Had imaginary friends and needed no one to play with to be happy - I had a world around me and that is all I needed. As I grow older, I find the same to be true. My dreams are usually full of fantasy and my life is around what the amazing future holds. Oh sure, I get as low as the next person (and per prior posts, being passionate in life means high and low) but for the most part I have to believe life is good...even when it is bad.

People are the best path to dreams coming true. I love being surrounded by people - helping them, laughing with them, being their shoulder/bar tender/friend you name it. My dreams, even when they are so far fetched they will never come true, are full of people.

I know everyone doesn't have the same addictions I do, and that an addiction to dreams does bring heartbreak sometimes, but I do hope that everyone knows just how much people can bring. We are humans - and need each other, even if we don't think so.

Happy Friday!

December

I love December.

I am one of those odd people who actually enjoy snow, winter is my favorite season. I now live where snow is a four letter word and something that, if even only 20% in the forecast, completely and totally shuts down the city.

This December has started off rough, but, I have to believe it will only get better as it is DECEMBER! Christmas is coming, the kids will be out of school soon, adults will be off of work, and the New Year will be here before we know it.

The New Year brings us all the chance to learn from the past and run into the future. It isn't a time to say you are going to change this, that and the other, it is a time to be thankful for all you have and jump into the next year with two feet as everyday is a chance to shine again.

No - everyday isn't easy, isn't fun and isn't full of peace, but everyday isn't miserable and lonely either. Everyday is what we want to make it.

Here's to all the great days coming in December and the days that have passed, great or not, that have helped form who we are.

So

It's been a while and no doubt a lot of things have happened, but no matter. Right now, more life spinning out of control is in full swing and I have no control over it. It doesn't directly affect me - no, I am one of the lucky ones, but that doesn't seem to make my stomach feel any better or my mind stop it's constant thoughts of "what now".

I have been there, where some are now, and while every situation is different, it isn't fun and it isn't comforting and darn it all, it is the Christmas season and this just isn't right.

Life isn't fair - I totally get that - but seriously.

That's all.

It just is

There is a situation in my life right now that has people surprised at the reaction, or lack there of, coming from me. I am very passionate person, some call that dramatic, who tends to lead with emotion whenever the situation leads.

This time around, I don't have emotion. No tears, no anger, no peace, no thankfulness. Nothing.

It is, quite literally, the end of a pretty major part of my life and yet. Nothing.

I would say the void of emotion bothers me, but that would be a lie. What's the point?

Are you kidding?!?!?

My hiking vest from my Expedition disappeared from my cube last night.

Who does that?

I didn't blog on election day

I got up early and took the kiddo to the poll with me and we voted and it was great. We spent the evening eating dinner in front of election coverage and although it didn't turn out at all how I would have wanted, it shows the freedom we have to elect our officials. I have lived in countries were that is not the case and we are so very lucky here regardless.

Enough being lucky - the next four years are going to be awful. And then the years following that will be rough as we will pay for those four years. And where I am, where I work, things are rough anyway and throw this on top of it - people are not happy. Okay, I am very not happy.

I was on the phone with the aforementioned amazing friend and it was sunny and nice there, here is it cloudy and yucky. Funny how the weather reflects our emotions, or is it our emotions that reflect the weather? I think it is both.

I know - I am super dramatic and think about it too much. But this is my blog, not yours so :-P.

It's Almost Election Day!!

I am a political junkie. I love it - and Election Day is big for me. I wanted to share my excitement on Election Day, but then read that Obama lost his Grandmother today.

Whether you like the man or not (and I a will not say which way I swing on it), please keep him and his family in your prayers on this very hard day. I still remember with crystal clear clarity the day I lost my Grandmother and it was one of the worst days of my life.

God Bless - and call your Grandmother, hug her, if you still can.