Internal Courage - It's Not Always Easy and That's Okay Too

Facebook memories are meant to bring back experiences you had in life that you may have forgotten about over time.  Today, I got a reminder about a post I wrote in July of 2014 about rain making the flowers go.  It seems we had a lot of literal rain that year, and, I suppose I was having rain in my life as well - or my friends and family were - as I wrote how rain can make the flowers grow which echos a song from one of my all time favorite shows.  What is ironic, is yesterday I shared a post from Busted Halo Courage doesn't always roar.  Sometimes, courage is a quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow.' just in case anyone needed to hear it and a number of friends reached out saying thank you, privately and on FB. 

Often times, while running, I get outside of the pain in my legs or breathing and work through things in my head.  If my brain is focused on other things it will forget that it wants me to believe that I cannot do whatever pace/distance I am being told to do.  I digress, today, before I worked out, I reread my post from July of 2014 and that was the premise of my thoughts during the 23 minute run today.  I don't have rain right now, although the skies do look like they are about to open at any minute (and they will because my sprinklers ran this morning), but my head was full of all the thoughts of what is going on in life and sometimes that is overwhelming.  The Tall One is kicking ass and taking names at his internship as he heads into his last semester at A&M.  The Kiddo is kicking ass and taking names at his internship as he heads into his year at UD.  The Big Guy is doing what he does while we both gear up for a few days at the lake with family and fishes. Yet my head was full with all the things that it takes to gear up for a few days at the lake, and work, and the house and and and.  Roughly 20 minutes in, yes it takes me that long to get out of my head, it occurred to me that it is all going to be good.  The boys are continually reaching their next stars despite rough times (life isn't always great y'all - it rains), the Big Guy and I are planning out the rest of our trips for the summer - some with the kids and some without - that are the fruits of the hard work we put in everyday.  Rain will make the flowers grow, and sweat will hide any scared or overwhelmed tears.  And once you let go of those things you can't change, once you accept the rain or the internal courage, well then it is just you and your spirit, and in my case, a sprint to the finish. 

Off to pack - I have a great few days of family and fishes ahead!