I started a new journey last month, one that is personal in it's own way. At 35, I started working out hard core and ran the first of many races. Since then, I have completed numerous halves, a marathon and enough mud runs with obstacles to be considered a mud loving pig. I really do miss a good mud run. I have also gone up in down in fitness and weight, and when the weight goes up, let's be honest - it is harder to get the fitness back. The word embarrassment comes to mind, but why be embarrassed about who you are? Well, that is an age old question and I am NOT tackling the world here, only my world.
My new journey includes some pretty hard core fitness at OrangeTheory. Today was distance day, and while I am a distance girl, even at a much slower pace than I ever was before, distance on a treadmill is a whole different story. And then we need to add in the very daunting heart rate monitor that posts your effort range on very large TVs in the room. The intent is to get green, orange and some red. Now, I run red - shocking I know, drama everywhere - my heart rate runs very fast and it seems that I am dying if you look at the screen and yet, if you look at me on whatever device I am currently using, I could be singing or smiling (unless during all out - then I am full on game face, RBF has NOTHING on my all out face thank you very much). My amazing coaches have assured me that I am good - and they are trained to know - at my 50 splat points while others work to get to 30. Today, I still had my 48 splat points yet I somehow also managed 21 minutes in orange and 14 in green. How? No idea other than the distance run felt good - like, really good. What is the point to all this build-up? It is not an OTF commercial I assure you.
The point is I was scared to get back into working out with others, and I need others to be successful in my workouts just like my life. Yes, the competition is against yourself - be better than the you of yesterday is not just a cheesy saying - but my old self was kind of badass and the new self? Well, she is getting there again. This is all in my eyes, and how you see yourself is very important to your personal success.
We are past the first month of dying new year's resolutions so now is the time - challenge yourself, not to be who you may have been in the past - stop comparing yourself to that person, rather challenge yourself to take on your fears (mine was humiliating myself in front of others while trying to better myself, I know, ridiculous) and get through them. You might be in the best shape of your life right now, you might be exactly where you want to be, but as a human, there is something you are afraid to take a chance and do, DO IT! Don't do it for me, or your kids, your loved ones, do it for YOU. Find your green / orange, don't fear the red - and no, this does not only apply to fitness. I hadn't written since October of last year...another fear overcome. If I can do it, I know you can.
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